I should try harder

I really should try harder right now. Study harder, dream harder and work harder. Because it is crucial period my life, when i am going to create my own path and follow it in further time. Of course, my preferences, my personality will change as time goes away, but anyways my today's choice is going to have an impact on my whole life. Therefore from today I will change my lifestyle at all. Do not expect from me cardinal changes, it is impossible so far. Ok, not impossible, but it has just a tiny possibility to be true. Anyways I tend to think that struggles that I am experiencing now are making me stronger than I am and better person. What I absolutely love in dealing with stress and uneasy periods of the life - is the lessons you learn after them, the knowledge you get after every fight, the simple and magnificent truth you begin to understand as well as yourself. It brings me real joy and helps me to cope with difficulties harder and harder until they will give up. I am not getting to give up so easy, get it? I am a boss and no one or nothing will control my life until I am present.